For the past few nights

I haven't been able to sleep...

I stay up all night reflecting on my life and the ones I love most. Have you ever wondered why bad things happen to good people. I could never grasp the concept..I constantly debate with myself over if some of Gods decisions always have a positive underlying purposes.

Can everything really happen for a reason? I don't think some shit that goes down in this world could possibly be under the will of God. I think man is solely responsible for the tragedies this world encounters everyday. When you watch the news you always feel bad, I know I do anyway; but when something horrible happens close to home, that's when you realize how fucked up this place can really be.

Have you ever had someone you love go through a pain you couldn't fix? Its not an easy pill to swallow. I don't think anyone should have to understand the desperation of finding a solution to a problem, that should have never occurred. Knowing that the one you hold closest feels alone, is probably one of the worst feelings in the world. Accepting a supporting role is easy, but to help make actual advances in the struggle is hard. Its a job that I think I'm up for though. Until I find that solution, I think I will have a lot more sleepless nights.

*sigh* and people have the audacity to say that Nas is lame.

THE WORLD IS YOURS.

I sip the Dom P, watchin Gandhi til I'm charged Then writin in my book of rhymes, all the words pass the margin. To hold the mic I'm throbbin, mechanical movement Understandable smooth shit that murderers move wit.

The thief's theme, play me at night, they won't act right. The fiend of hip-hop has got me stuck like a crack pipe. The mind activation, react like I'm facin time like'Pappy' Mason with pens I'm embracin .

Wipe the sweat off my dome, spit the phlegm on the streets Suede Timb's on my feets, makes my cypher, complete Whether crusin in a six-cab, or Montero JeepI can't call it, the beats make me fallin asleep I keep fallin, but never fallin six feet deep I'm out for presidents to represent me (Say what?) I'm out for presidents to represent me (Say what?)

I'm out for dead presidents to represent me

I wanna get this stuff for my girl

She loves zebras, so one day ima hook her up with some dope ass zebra apparel.

In my quest for everything zebra ive actually found some pretty ill shit.

Every night I pray

Dear God,

I pray that I will one day be cool enough to rock some shit like this, and not be looked at like I'm a complete idiot. I also pray that I can continue to rock that same shit until I'm in my mid 30's like Pharrell & still get GQ best dressed of the year...amen

...and I wanna be 6'7 please


thanks.

Julian Beever

Ive blogged about him on my old blog, but hes one of my favorite artist so I had to include him on this one.

He does insane pavement drawings that have included both renderings of old masters plus original inventive pieces.

Its all based upon depth perception, pretty amazing actually. It really is some of the most mindblowing work ive seen, check him out yo!

It hurts

It hurts when the one you love most is going through the worst pain imaginable, and you cant do anything but be a helpful bystander.

It hurts when they are going through pain that cant be healed with just a hug or a kiss. A pain that you cant make go away with a few words of encouragement, but a pain that is going to always linger on.

It hurts that you share this pain so you understand you cant flip a switch and make it better.

It hurts when the one you love the most feels alone.

It hurts when your job is too make everything right, but you have to accept there are some things that you just cant.

It hurts seeing them cry, seeing them struggle.

It hurts knowing that there is some things you just cant help with.

It hurts when the thing you want most is for them to be happy, but you don't always have the power to do that.

Just know I will always be by your side. Through the good and the bad, the ups and the downs, it hurts because I love you more then life itself.

Pain, Sorrow, Depression, Regret

Pain, Sorrow, Depression, Regret

Reoccurring themes in my life that I know I don't hold alone. The pain of the event, the sorrow that follows. The depression that comes with it and the regret that follows. Some things in your life don't get easier, accepting isn't always the final therapeutic step.

Some pain doesn't just "go away with time" like everybody says. From first hand experience I know that eventually though it does get easier to withstand. Some shit you don't wanna talk about, its too hard. Some shit you don't even want to think about, but that doesn't stop you from thinking.

My mom always told me everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I don't know if that's completely true. Why do children get killed, was there a reason why 6 million Jew's died in the holocaust. Some things I cant stomach having an actual reason, and with this I know I'm not alone.

please please please be mine! X Air Yeezys dropedddddd :-)

Yesss they dropeeddd. I cant wait to cop 'em.

Ive been hyped about these shoes since I heard the rumors about a year ago.

Please be mine !

whats wrong?

When you care about somebody and want to do whatever you can to help, Its really lame when you don't know what the problem is.

Especially when your not face to face with your loved one so you cant just hold them, an be there.

I wish they had something that could let you understand whats going through peoples heads. uhhhh wheres my mind reading device yo!?

Japanese Cartoon X Army (video)

Okay I don't care what anybody says, thats Lupe singing lead lol.

From the few tracks released from Japanese Cartoon I actually really like their sound.

They have a sort of a 80's British punk feel to them lol. Check this video out for their song "Army" here. Pretty Ill if you ask me. Even if you don't like the music, the video is mad interesting.

Andy Warhol

Andy Warhol is a printmaker, painter and filmaker who was a leading figure in the pop art movement in America (Started by takashi murakami)

He is soooo dope. Most of the artist ive blogged about have been influenced by him.

He really is amazing, I dont wanna rant cause I can go on forever but check him out yo!

2 face

Now let me ask you a question.

Who are you? why you here? and why you stressin?

Why always so over protective.

False accusations lead to lack of discretion

Ive never heard such false words spoken, of course you never lyin your always "just jokin"

I try to keep it 100, non fiction, but she stay pitchin like her name Roger Clemens....(unfinished)

In a nutshell

With ought killing you guys with the details, I don't really have a place I call "home" right now. Me and my family had to move out of my house unexpectedly. The people who we were leasing the house from are cheap as fuck and routed the gas pipes in our house wrong. We could of blown up at any moment cause those cheap ass muthafuckas. We have a mold problem too, that they don't want to handle effectively. So basically me and my fam have been bouncing from hotel to hotel. Relatives to relatives, and Now I'm at my dads house. He really doesn't want me and my bros here ( Deeper rant) and truthfully I don't even wanna be anywhere I'm not wanted. That "A house is not a Home" song finally makes sense lol

Damn...

I know I haven't been blogging in a minuteeee. Allots been going on in my life. Haven't really had the energy or the time, but since everything is cooling down now, Im'a take the time to bring you guys up to date.