For the past few nights

I haven't been able to sleep...

I stay up all night reflecting on my life and the ones I love most. Have you ever wondered why bad things happen to good people. I could never grasp the concept..I constantly debate with myself over if some of Gods decisions always have a positive underlying purposes.

Can everything really happen for a reason? I don't think some shit that goes down in this world could possibly be under the will of God. I think man is solely responsible for the tragedies this world encounters everyday. When you watch the news you always feel bad, I know I do anyway; but when something horrible happens close to home, that's when you realize how fucked up this place can really be.

Have you ever had someone you love go through a pain you couldn't fix? Its not an easy pill to swallow. I don't think anyone should have to understand the desperation of finding a solution to a problem, that should have never occurred. Knowing that the one you hold closest feels alone, is probably one of the worst feelings in the world. Accepting a supporting role is easy, but to help make actual advances in the struggle is hard. Its a job that I think I'm up for though. Until I find that solution, I think I will have a lot more sleepless nights.